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Its been 3 consecutive days that I have worked until 2 am and left the office.This is getting wrong.Client's last minute changes...so many things do to...It making me seems incompetent.Damnz...let's just hope it ends soon.

School is starting again this weekend.its seems like it a fast break for me or rather i think I did not have much rest for this break becoz of the stupid project...

Its been a long time since I talked to her...she's always busy in office...maybe too busy to reply my sms or just dun be bothered to reply.Seriously I dunno...just hoping I can have the time to meet up or even talk with her....seriously I think I am in a low period of my life I guess..but like always...Its a brand new day ahead...so just be normal and handle whatever that is given I guess..

Another day~

yes its been another day.Work is as busy as last week.Ended the days at 1230am..my god..when is this gonna end?1 good thing about being so busy is that it does not give me time to think of her or spend time to think if I should call her.I dunno if my persistence has turned into some kind of nuisance to her..but I shall carry on with this "persistence" until i dunno when...let time tell...about time to sleep now...signing off...

Been a long long time now

It's been a long long time now...i think 1 year since i post something here...haha.Now i just wanna have somewhere to write my stuff and let out my feelings.

Its been a long time since I have this feeling.A kind of possessive and doubting feeling.I doubt I will make a good boyfriend with this kind of feeling lingering around the girl I like.Is it due to insecurity that I have this feeling?Is it because I dun have any love exp before?Thats why I am having this feeling?Or is it just a childish way of thinking on my perception on what love is?

Recently its been a on off feeling.I try not to read too much about it.But it seems the more I control,the more disappointed I have become.So what should I really do...I mean it's that she is not my gf now.But I wanna know every movement of what she is doing...am I going way off possessive?or it's a sense of insecurity I have?

I do not even know how is she feeling towards me?Taking me as a normal friend?Or someone that can be somebody that is more than friends?I am just a idiot when it comes to love.They say persistence is the key to success.But is my persistence being more a nuisance than what it should be?

I really hope someone can come and give me specific advice.Seriously I am lost now although I dun seem to be when I dun show it out....anyway another advice given to me is be yourself...which I find very hard to be especially in front of her...my god~!why can't I have a normal and easy girl that I can be with?!?!?