a noBody...

Its been quite a while (well almost a year) since I have come into here.Guess this is a place where I let out my feelings in words.Have done a lot of crazy things over these 1 year.knowing new friends, going to weddings, trying to win a girl's heart.Guess what really matter to me most is the last part..that someone that I like.

Few have told me that there will be no end.
Some encourage me to go on.
Other just tell me to take it naturally.
what it seems to me is hopeful, guess this is what they call it so near yet so far.

Coming to V day soon, I have invite her out on that special day in hoping she will agree.But...the answer is somehow the different from expectation.Felt so hurt when I get the answer from her.Nevertheless I continue to try until now...from another friend's mouth..she said no one has asked her out.

Devastating..
Now I had came to know I am a NOBODY to her.
Now I had known that my name is not even worth mentioning.
Now I came to know how much I meant to her in her heart.....
a NOBODY...

I would be happy for the whole day just to have dreamed of holding hands with you.But nevertheless, what myth has told is true; "what happens in dreams is the opposite of reality"...how very true....

why?why have I done to deserve such treatment from you?
Am I not good enough for you?
Am I too young for you?
Am I too boorish to you?
Am I too financially unstable to you?
Or am I just unworthy compared to you...

Maybe its time to brace up and face the reality.Or just time to wear and another mask to let the people around me not to worry..I would chose the latter as I think it would be better for the 2 of us..they say reality is harsh...oh,so how well very true..but who am I to face a reality?I am just a NOBODY....

Feeling : down..